The desires of your heart.

Delight yourself in the LORD,
and he will give you the desires of your heart.

Commit your way to the LORD;
trust in him, and he will act.
He will bring forth your righteousness as the light,
and your justice as the noonday. – Psalm 37:4-6

Unbelief is a pestilence that I am tired of housing in my heart. I am finding more and more promises that I have spent years failing to believe and act on. Yet I can honestly say to you, friend, that this passage is a promise I am no longer abusing with neglect. Last night I met someone who told me he did not believe in anything really, but that he was beginning to search for the truth. I was able to look him in the eye and tell him about my Friend Jesus without any doubt. I didn’t stutter. I didn’t trip or double-back over my words. I meant it. I wrenched the lid off my heart and poured it out for him.

We each have God-given gifts. They bring beauty to our community. We are equipped to serve and uplift each other. My gift is a relentless heart. I’m still a person very much diseased with sin and shortcomings, but I am daily leaning on everlasting arms for balance and strength. I have begun the life-long task of surrendering my entire self to Christ. And with that surrender comes a deeper love and a stronger heart. I am a fighter who isn’t afraid to shed his own blood.
I see a Man stretching His arms across a rugged plank of wood and I lay my hands next to His. I am no longer a spectator of grace. I am a partaker. I am a doer. The desires of my heart have changed. My ways have shifted.

I will delight myself in You,
and You will give me the desires of my heart.
I commit my way to You;
I trust You and You act.
You bring forth my righteousness as the light,
and my justice as the noonday.